I'm a mother, birthmother, aspiring photographer. Fighting against a world of shame. fan-girl of too many things. My blog changes with my mood.
Depression is overtaking me. It’s getting to strong to fight off anymore. I’m lost and I can’t handle this.
I AM WORKING ON MY THEME AND I CANT GET EVERYTHING PERFECT THIS IS SO AGGRAVATING OMG
At the end of the day I think about every socially awkward thing I did the past day or week or year or decade and stress about what the fuck is wrong with me
I saw that someone I knew liked one of my posts. After blocking them I noticed a setting that people can find me from my email. No thanks.
I really need to start doing yoga more again. I just have no motivation. I’m so sick of feeling like this though…
I wish I knew what happened to my self confidence. I’ve never been so upset with trying on new clothes.
At least I was in a good mood for part of yesterday.
I feel guilty about posting last night. I think the harder time I’m having the more I ~try~ to open up. How difficult this is for me is making me realize that I probably have a lot more to deal with than I thought.
I’m getting so upset I feel like I could vomit. It’s not even specific memories that are upsetting me. It’s almost like I’m not allowing the memories. Just the knowledge of it all. My head is pounding. Maybe if I could face it this wouldn’t be as hard.. but I can’t help but keep it in.